May 14, 2017
Total Miles: 589
Yesterday was a beautiful day. No rain. Clear skies and cool weather could not of asked for anything better.
Ate breakfast at the barn restaurant and headed out of Atkins.
The trail is full of water.
Virginia is pretty.. the open pastures are breath taking!
Slept pretty good, took a while with my oatmeal and coffee and headed out last for the 23 miles we had planned.
Not sure what started it but my mood became blue pretty fast. My heart suddenly felt heavy. As if someone had sucker punched my heart.
I let my thoughts snow ball and had tears pooling up and had to stop to catch my breath.
So I made it to a super cool shelter and met up with the tramily for lunch.
I needed to be solo today.
I needed to go through whatever was on my mind. I needed to process it… I needed to cry.
After a while I came to a rock and semi view and dropped my pack and sat my butt down and cried.
I didn’t cry about one particular thing. I just bawled because I needed to.
After a while I collected myself and headed on the trail. I felt some strange sort of relief.
I caught up to planner and we walked the rest together. She was so understanding about me distancing myself And said we could talk about it if I wanted to.
It was just one of those days where I became overwhelmed with emotions.
But the biggest part for me was to actually cry. To ride this wave of emotion that was coming and to let it happen, let it out, then move on. Instead of bottling it up like I normally would in “real life”.
I was told the mountains and this trail change you and teach you. You just have to listen.
We ended the day by a big gorgeous river that we all stood in. I wanted to swim and completely dunk myself.. But the water was so cold!
I am excited for tomorrow. We get free breakfast!!
Iz and Oz